Thank you very much for your lovely comments. 

I write with shaking fingers, jittery mind and I’m finding it difficult to stick to any plan for the day. But it is better to write something than nothing and no matter what I write now it is really so that I can see the words pop up on the screen.  Little signs that I am alive, however I’m feeling.  I want to crawl under a heavy blanket even though that is useless.

Better to look round and see something pleasing and carry on the struggle.   I know I am loved though I don’t feel I deserve it.

Take care.  Be very kind to yourself.